I pride myself on being a nerd. Wholockian, Trekker, whatever we Star Wars fans are supposed to call ourselves, etcetera.

Confession time: Sometimes I feel like a total wannabe nerd. Wanna know why?

A) I don’t like Firefly. I’m sorry to all the hardcore Whedonites out there. I tried. I couldn’t get into it. I think I survived four or five episodes before I bailed.

B) I can’t draw. I don’t contribute to the world of fanart because I can’t draw a straight line with a ruler. My brain cannot wrap itself around concepts needed in order to actually draw anything. In high school, the first time I had to draw a face, the male face looked like a monkey. And a badly drawn monkey at that.

C) I don’t really write fanfiction either. I wrote one brief little short story after an episode of Bones. (And it’s brief. Probably not even a page so more like a scene.) But that’s been it for fanfiction. I’d rather spend my time writing something that could actually be published.

D) I like video games. But I don’t live and breathe video games. In fact, when I had an N64 I only ever beat one of my games. (Legend of Zelda: Majora’s Mask, if you’re wondering.) I had Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Time. I freed all the sages, built the bridge to the castle, but never crossed to fight the big boss. (I had three other games that were beat-able and never got anywhere close to beating them.) With the Wii, I have five games that are beat-able. I’ve beaten one of them twice. Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess is sitting there waiting for me to beat the palace of twilight and then the big bad of the whole game. Legend of Zelda: Skyward Sword, I’m stuck in the first temple. I died a zillion times fighting the boss (motion controls make it tough, man) and left the temple to regroup. Now I can’t get back to the boss room. Lego Star Wars is tougher than Lego LOTR (the latter of which I beat 100% twice). And Rise of the Guardians I died early on.

*hugs nerd card close* You don’t get to take it away from me. It’s mine. Because despite what I wrote above, I’m still a nerd. The people who pin to the geek board on pinterest get me. Even if I don’t always get every reference they make. And even if I never beat another video game, it’s a place of refuge. Just like books.