Finding Where I Fit — January 6, 2014

Finding Where I Fit

Whenever I start thinking about my writing future, where my books I’m writing now might fit, I always circle back to one giant fear.

That I’ll never find a fit for my books.

I’ve had two friends lose their publishers. One has jumped full steam ahead into self-publishing. Which is great. It fits her books well and she’s happy there. (At least I view her as happy, despite the setbacks.) The other is still sorting out her best option.

I’ve seen people become very jaded very quickly with the traditional publishing process. I’ve seen them start to diversify their list, some traditional and some self-published work.

I see some friends set a backbreaking pace for themselves in self-publishing.

I see so many paths, none of which feel right for me, for my books, for my personality.

I’m not a fast writer by any stretch of the imagination. I simply don’t have the hours to devote to writing any faster than I do when I’m at my most productive pace. (My most productive pace being 1K-2k per day. On bad days I write 500 words. On extremely good, and rare, days I can write 2K-3K.)

I need to stop trying to fit into the molds others have made for themselves. I know this, but it doesn’t stop me trying. And worrying.

But I know I don’t fit anywhere right now. I’ve never fit in, my whole life. I’ll probably always be the girl no one knows what to do with.

Social Media Redux — November 3, 2011

Social Media Redux

I know I already talked about ditching Facebook.  Since then, I’ve done likewise to Google+.  The same day I did that I culled my blogroll to just the blogs I regularly read.  (And even then I’m sure I’m not faithful in my visiting of those blogs.)

Why?

It’s just too much.  Even Twitter I’ve gotten lax on.  Partly it’s because I’ve gotten a seasonal job which is taking a lot of my energy.  (Way more than it rightly should, if you ask me.  I’m just out of practice on this whole being employed thing.)

But a bigger part of it is that it’s just too much.  That’s why I’ve pared down the blog schedule to only two days a week.  Priorities are in need of constant reassessment.  This is part of that process.

Yes, authors need a platform.  But more and more I’m seeing agents and publishers talking about how it’s not something fiction authors need to focus on before they’re published.

Yes, it can help grab an agent’s attention.  It can be a good leg up when you do get a book published.  But it detracts from what’s really important in this process– WRITING.

I’ve learned a lot along the way in the two-plus years I’ve been blogging consistently.  But I’ve learned even more with each book I’ve written in those years.  But while writing has always been my goal and what I wanted to do, blogging took over.  The pressure put on authors on the road to agent, editor, and finally book-on-shelf to be out there on the social media is overwhelming.

And it just got to be too much.  So I decided to cut it back.